I have nothing else to do
I'll make it up I could take a nap too
Boredom makes me feel real lonely
And I think of you only
You said you had time for me
I'm always making time for you
But you forget about me
And it make me feel real lonely
I miss you
You forget about me
Who am I to feel like anybody
When I struggle just to be somebody
I have just so much to do
Or I could just sleep it through
Life makes me feel real lonely
And I think of you only
I wanna be somebody
You won't forget so easily
I wanna say I love you
But you won't care about it
I could put myself out there
But I have a feeling I'll regret it
And still I miss you
You forget about me
Who am I to feel like anybody
When I struggle just to be somebody
Life makes me feel real lonely
And I think of you only
I wanna be somebody
You won't forget so easily
Cover my face up with shame in makeup
The way I look is not enough
Right when I wake up
I gotta earn my right to become human
Put some lipstick on real quick
And keep right on moving
Cause bare skin and bitter thoughts are never in
But it makes no sense to just pretend
That I am okay, okay I feel happy this way
I will get better, just not today
Because today I'm way too tired
To keep on trying
In just a moment I'll be laying on my bed
To go to sleep instead
Bare skin and bitter thoughts are never in
But it makes no sense to just pretend
That I am okay, okay I feel happy this way
I will get better, just not today
I always wanted to write you a love song
Always trying to find the right thing to say
Here I am at long last song in hand
Singing to celebrate our sure end
And the times that together we spent in the past
And I sometimes look back
I remember what love feels like when I think of you
And the times that we spent
With your hand in my hand
Hoping there was no end
I always want you to know that my love was real
Never able to find the right way to show you
But here finally under blue skies
I sing to celebrate our good-bye
My best friend we are dead, rest in peace we may
And I sometimes think back
I have hope love is real when I think of you
And the times that we spent
Just side by side
Thinking there was no end
And I sometimes cry at night
Because I miss the times that we laughed and we cried
I was in so much pain when we said our goodbyes
I now know it's for the better
You knew better than I
And I sometimes sing at night
Because I don't miss all those times that we hurt each other
We were both so young and we still are
I just hope you're happy
You know how I try
I always wanted to write you a love song
I know love is real, I loved you
Here I am in the end, here's your song
I am sorry it all went so wrong
I know love is real
I know thanks to you
I always say the wrong thing to your jokes
I wish you weren't joking 'cause it hurts
Would I hold your hand and take your name?
I won't but if you take my hand you may take my name instead
Would I love you so endlessly?
I want to, but only if you let me
When I look into your eyes
I think that I see love
I'm not sure what that looks like
So I surely could be wrong
Can I be the one that you don't love
Who's there to use, and easy to dispose of?
Can I look into your eyes and see the truth?
I won't, but I will act as though I do
Would I love you so endlessly?
I want to, but only if you let me
When I look into your eyes
I think that I see love
I'm not sure what that looks like
So I surely could be wrong
Will I love you so endlessly?
I want to, but only if you let me
When I look into your eyes
I think that I see love
I'm not sure what that looks like
So I surely could be wrong
Creature devour me soon
You move like a dancer
And speak in a spellbinding tune
When I look down upon you
Head between my thighs
I dream of the sea and
The desert in your eyes
At dawn I am to find you in your room
Crawl under the covers and meet you inside
My lover greets me with soft spoken sweetness
And I wake them with eager kisses
I always dream of you
Painted in golden and blue
Soft skin on my fingertips
Blue porcelain on my lips
I lay down next your body
Bare on the bed
Covered in sweat
Covered in moonlight
Blue porcelain
Chain smoked cigarette smell
Golden jewels just suit you so well
Moon shining bright on your being
I want to touch your ceramic skin
I lay down next your body
Bare on the bed
Covered in sweat
Covered in moonlight
Blue porcelain
I lay down next your body
Bare on the bed
Covered in sweat
Covered in moonlight
Blue porcelain
I like to surround myself
With things that are beautiful
People who speak like poets, move like dancers
People who have more questions than answers
Artist, and anarchists, and scholars
Who help me see the world through a different lens
They make me believe that we can do better
We love profoundly and we fight together
All my friends are
Criminals, and degenerates, and perverts, and heathens
They are
Criminals, and degenerates, and perverts, and heathens
They are
Criminals, and degenerates, and perverts
And that's just how I like it
That's just how I like it
All my friends are sweet
And kind, empathetic, and thoughtful
They are vulnerable, and flawed
They're human, my gospel
They are
Criminals, and degenerates, and perverts
And they fill my heart with so much hope
All my friends are
Criminals, and degenerates, and perverts, and heathens
They are
Criminals, and degenerates, and perverts, and heathens
They are
Criminals, and degenerates, and perverts
And that's just how I like it
All my friends are
Criminals, and degenerates, and perverts, and heathens
They are
Criminals, and degenerates, and perverts, and heathens
They are
Criminals, and degenerates, and perverts
And they fill my heart with so much hope
released January 17th, 2026
Anthony Torres Castillo - Lead Guitar
Kolt Acevedo - Drums
Saraí T. - Lyrics, Vocals, Rythm Guitar
Timothy Morgan - Bass Guitar
Cover art by Kell Lorenz
Recorded at Wolfy's Studio in Altadena, CA
Produced and Engineered by Wolfy
Mixed by Christian Paul Philippi
Mastered by Elaine Rasnake